When You Don’t Feel Like Praying
Here’s another good prayer from Scotty Smith. This is one for a day we’ve all experienced; it’s a prayer for days when you don’t feel like praying. Scotty and I aren’t the only one who have these days, are we?—those days when you’re just so glad that God’s delight in you isn’t contingent on your delight in him.
Here’s how Scotty prayed on a day like that:
Dear Father, this is one of those days when I could create a long prayer list and methodically go through it, but I'm not sure I would really be praying. I could go through the motions, but to be quite honest, it would be more ritual than reality... more about me, than the people and situations I'd bring before you. I'm feeling a bit distracted this morning, scattered and not very focused.
It's one of those days I'm glad the gospel is much more about your grasp of me than my grip on you. It's one of those days I'm grateful your delight in me is not contingent upon my delight in you. It's one of those days I'm very thankful for the prayer ministry of the Holy Spirit.
Gracious Father, I have no problem or reluctance in acknowledging my weakness this morning. In fact it's freeing to know your Spirit doesn't abandon us when we're weak, but helps us in our weakness. Just as Jesus constantly prays for us, the Holy Spirit faithfully prays in us with "wordless groans." Though I don't understand everything that means, I do get the part about you searching our hearts and you knowing the mind of the Spirit, and that brings me great comfort today.
No one knows our hearts better than you, Father. And you search our hearts to save us, not to shame us... to deliver us, not to demean us... to change us, not to chide us. You know my dignity and my depravity, my fears and my longings, my struggles with sin and my standing in Christ. No one but you knows how little or how much of the gospel I actually get.
And at this very moment your Spirit is praying inside of me... perfectly tuned into my needs and in total harmony with your will. I cannot measure the peace that brings. I surrender right now, Father. I will gladly groan to your glory. I know you are at work for my good in all things, including this season.
All I have to do is look at Jesus and know these things are true. You have called me to life in him and you will complete your purpose in me... and in each of your children... and in the entire cosmos. I do love you, I would love you more. So very Amen, I pray, in Jesus' merciful and faithful name.